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we saw evermore! i probably should have updated this when we actually did see them which was almost two weeks ago now... amazing.
and we met them and chatted for aaaages and they were all hilarious...ly weird, hence we liked them very much. dann... pete... fo-war! and yeah jon too, but then he was quite quiet and i prefer the louder types!
haha at the moment jon walked into the barfly and i had a spaz attack. a proper one. ace.

and today me and eve picked strawberries and raspberries, and chatted to the other guy that takes over my shift who i've hardly met before called nick, and he's also amazing. i absolutely love everyone that works where i do! they all rock! i want to stay in touch with them all after i quit work.

and lastly, i just ordered the new evermore album which will be a tremendous beast if it gets here and it's okay! and it only cost about a tenner overall which is absolutely amazing value. hopefully it'll be here in two weeks at the latest. and then i can learn the piano bits to all the songs :)

this week will be amazing!

-samba gig on tuesday

-rocky horror picture show on friday

-new jeans buying tomorrow

-clothes swap at my gaff on saturday

-and technically not this week, but i think it's monday we're off to see evermore. i will meet dann hume and everybody will be jealous (or probably not, but you will be if i meet pete!)

Take me now.
You spin the sun around.
And the stars will all come out.
Then we turn and come back down
Turn and come back down.

Two important thing.

One. Isn't the English spelling of "grey" so much better than the American spelling of "gray"? There's is almost "gay".

Two. I learnt today off Rachel that , i can't remember how exactly (my memory doesn't go that far), that when you look into a mirror it's not an accurate representation of the person. Which explains why if you look in a mirror and see something wrong people always say no there's nothing wrong, and how you never understand how someone can look in the mirror and think they're ugly when they'r enot. But me and sarah tested it out, and we both looked into the same mirror and i saw what she was seeing, and it actually didn't look like her. It was easy for me to see that about her but i wonder what i like. I suppose like i do on photos, which is still terrible... but i still thought it was interesting.

I've just been to Jess' and we watched Bill and Ted's Bogue Journey.

Rules.

stolen from girl_wombed
...like i care :P
it's been way too long since i bored myself to sleep with a quiz.

[01] Name: Anne/ MC Mills/ Wham
[02] D.O.B.: 02.09.89
[03] Location: Spital. That's a ncie piece of greenery on the Wirral (NW England)
[04] Religion: Christian
[05] Occupation: Nil.

APPEARANCE:
[01] Hair: Lots and lots and lots of curls and frizz! (blonde/brown combo!)
[02] Eyes: Blue...grey
[03] Height: 5' something. Quite small.

STYLE:
[01] Clothing: Usually a funky pair of jeans and layered t-shirts. Occasionally i have pretty clothes. And sometimes i go crazy and wear lots of colour and patterns, and other times i dress a bit hippie-ish. And then sometimes rather indie. It varies on how i feel in the morning!
[02] Music: Rock, Jazz, Punk, Ska, Samba :D, Blues
[03] Make up: White foundation (that doesn't really look white), blue/pink eyeshadow, pencil/liquid eyeliner, mascara, lipgloss. (I need it all...:P)
[04] Bodyart: None..yet.

RIGHT NOW:
[01] Wearing: Purple pyjama trousers, terrorvision t-shirt (been passed down from every member of my family), rainbow necklace, underwear.
[02] Listening to: Rae and Christian- Blazing the Crop (that's the song from that first fanta advert ages ago- very funky!)
[03] Thinking of: The school open evening i just went to, and how that band was called 'Bangkok Chick Boys' from Alan Partridge, and peeing myself.

LAST THING YOU:
[01] Bought: Funky funky new jeans!
[02] Ate & drank: Potato and Sausage for dinner with water.
[03] Read: Dave Gorman's Googlewhack Adventure.
[04] Watched on TV: The Simpsons.

EITHER / OR:
[01] Club or houseparty: I've never really been to either. I'm a nerd. :P I prefer bowling!
[02] Tea or coffee: The smell of coffee.
[03] Achiever or slacker: Slacker who always manages to pull through in the end.
[04] Beer or cider: Cider.
[05] Drinks or shots: Drinks
[06] Cats or dogs: Cats. Ugh dog tongues.
[07] Single or taken: Single. And extremely happy about that. People suck.
[08] Pen or pencil: Pencil.
[09] Gloves or mittens: Mittens. Wow i need to find my mittens.
[10] Food or candy: Stop using american terms!..candy.
[11] Cassette or CD: Cassettes rule my baps.
[12] Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi.
[13] Hard or mild alcohol: Mild.
[14] Matches or a lighter: I have neither :o but to light something other than a cigarette..matches all the way.
[15] Sunset Beach or The Bold and the Beautiful: Oh wow! Someone made this quiz specially for me! Sunset Beach dude!
[16] Rickie Lake or Oprah Winfrey: Not really a fan of either.

WHO DO YOU WANT TO:
[01] Kill: My hair.
[02] Hear from: Kris.
[03] Get really wasted with: lol...probably kris actually that would be funny.
[04] Look like: This girl in our year, or Meg White.
[05] Be like: Someone happy with themselves.
[06] Avoid: Big Dave.

LAST PERSON YOU . . . AND WHEN:
[01] Touched: Lizzie :D, tonight
[02] Talked to: Dad about selling the flute, tonight
[03] Hugged: Lizzie (as above) about an hour ago
[04] Instant messaged: Ryan, last night. He said he loved me o_o after I said i hated him..whoops.
[05] Kissed: Big Dave *growls*
[06] Who broke your heart: ^

WHERE DO YOU:
[01] Eat: Garden, Dining room.
[02] Dance: Hehe..me bedroom, and sitting at the computer!
[03] Cry: Bedroom. I like to grab the bed when i feel frustrated.
[04] Wish you were: Running through grassy sand dunes with naomi sarah and kris. High on sugar.

HAVE YOU EVER:
[01] Dated one of your best friends: No.
[02] Loved somebody so much it makes you cry: Yes :D
[03] Drank alcohol: Of course.
[04] Done drugs: Paracetamol?:P
[05] Broken the law: I think probably yes.
[06] Ran away from home: No. Wanted to ages ago.
[07] Broken a bone: Ha. no.
[08] Cheated on a test: Never!
[09] Skinny dipped: Nope.
[10] Played "Truth or Dare": All the time. No one ever thinks of good 'truths' to ask, or any good dares.
[11] Flashed someone: Never.
[12] Mooned someone: I probably did when i was small.
[13] Kissed someone you didn't know: No.
[14] Been on a talk show / game show: No.
[15] Ridden in a fire truck: No.
[16] Been on a plane: No...
[17] Come close to dying: Three times now :P
[18] Cheated on your boy / girlfriend: No. Been done to me, i couldn't do it to anyone knowing what it feels like.
[19] Gave someone a piggy back / shoulder ride: Yeah, and we both fellover into the road >.<
[20] Eaten a worm / mud pie: Eeee.steg. XP
[21] Swam in the ocean: Have done, but it scares me.
[22] Had a nightmare / dream that made you wake up: Yeah, that one where the woman with the panda ears was tickling me.

WHAT IS:
[01] The Spice Girls: Fitties.
[02] Your bedroom like: Light pink and green, but covered in posters and photos and gig tickets, and random junk and jewellery.
[03] Your favorite thing for breakfast: Crunchy nut cornflakes.
[04] Your favorite thing for lunch: Bacon and lettuce sandwiches.
[05] Your favorite thing for dinner: Spag Bol :D
[06] Your favorite restaurant: Ooh...I like one called Nandos in Liverpool.

ARE YOU:
[01] A vegetarian: No.
[02] A good student: Ish. Get bored and tired easily.
[03] Good at sports: Crap at sports.
[04] Good at wakeboarding / snowboarding: Was okay at snowboarding but i don't really get any practice.
[05] A good singer: I'm not sure, and i'm not showing anyone so they cna tell me n case i'm horrendous!
[06] A good actor / actress: I think i am actually, especially atover the top drama.
[07] A deep sleeper: Mm..sleep..
[08] A good dancer: Kind of, if i know moves. Unfortunately when i go to show people my body spazzes up and i end up doing it stupidly on purpose.
[09] Shy: Yes around new people.
[10] Outgoing: A fair bit of the time. Sometimes too much.
[11] A good storyteller: You are listening to- the world's greatest reader of winnie the pooh.
[12] Last words: Shit happens.

Two fitties.

why is it that when i put 'diet coke tortoise' into google it comes up with a picture of kurt cobain?

Laser questage was great, although it feels so far away I can't be much bothered going into it loads. However, we have decided it would be a great thing to do once every month so.. woo! i was talking to jon about it on the way to school today, and we got talking about imagining if people actually snuck in real laser guns...

me- "wow! heh. you'd be like... haha! you can't hurt me! and then you'd be like.. arh... my face is melting.."

:P

Anyway, whilst there in chester, I got some pretty funky jewellery for me and jane. went a bit overboard with the birthday money.. *cough*.

I got to wheel sarah around school, today and bumped her into many things. I'm still not getting the hang of it.

Absolute yes! Taped Muriel's Wedding last night, and this time there's no one to tape over it! I just watched it tonight, and i think this is the first time i've properly paid attention, or understood it.. and I couldn't stop crying for about half of the film. It's just so sad. I really needed a hug at that point, i had to grab my jumper!

Tonight was the night I was meeting zoe, and we went and sat in the cafe at the top of the Oval, even though no one was serving anymore, so we just ate some lollipops , and the stick on mine kept coming out of the actual lolly and i nearly choked a couple of times. We chatted pretty much about church, and how the youth is going (or rather, not going), while i moped a bit about how dave and steph aren't there much anymore. heh. After watching the swimmers we went outside to find the football team, and laughed as Luke aimed for the ball and fell on his bum. Until I thought he was hurt. But he wasn't so it was okay! I impressed barry in goal with the harmonica he gave me yesterday, I was trying to play 'who ate all the pies?'. After waiting for ages for them to finish, me and Zoe looked out at the track for a bit, and decided we might go running there. For me, again. I'm a bit worried about ringing Derek up again, but he can't force me into no races this time!

I feel very productive today.

After school I walked down to Bebington and went to the opticians, where I got my glasses fixed (although to be honest, I can now see they're not completely done and I'll probably have to take them back later), then on to the dentist where I booked an appointment to chat with my new new NEW dentist about fixing my teeth (possibly), then onto Barnardos to get a sketch book for art, and I also happened to spy the most comfy jumper in the world which obviously I'm wearing now. Soemthing for winter. And then I went and found the opening and closing times for Burberry's (the cafe) , although the name is kind of putting me off, I keep thinking of chavvy culture, but anyway, should be going there with Zo, next week perhaps.

After this weekend, mother is helping me onto a diet/healthy eating thingamibob, by hiding all the gay food. Why doesn't she just not buy it! Me and jess are going running together, but now back at Wirral AC for fear Derek will notify Miss Young that I've started again. And I think I'm also going cycling with dad, I'd forgotten about bikes until ruth started talking about liam, the cycling pro.

I had to decorate mine and jane's cake for tomorrow (it has plastic wombles on it!), and decided to put on some 'pumpkins whilst listening. Mum comes into the kitchen and goes 'what's that noise?!' , actually as though it isn't my cd, but a NOISE. And dad went I dont know but it's horrible. I was like it's my music but FINE! I will take it off! and had to put the Smiths back on..again.

Tomorrow is the laser-questing, and I've already told everyone that my team will win, doesn't matter who's on it but we have TACTICS! and we will barricade the bridge first. I hope I manage to get jane's present before though :( I was also thinking about getting that prom dress tomorrow but I'm not sure if I can be bothered.

Miss Cogan caught me and jess both going out of chemistry early to take sarah down to the interview room even though it was only supposed to be jess. Gah. I don't think I mentioned before, but my mate has recently got ME so we all have to wheel her around school. It's quite funny actually, although I have run over a number of feet. Another GAH.

I hope you're all watching the new series of bayker groove man. hehe. or Byker Grove to all you people not from Nucastle. And also I hope you are watching Rogue Traders, as Matt Allwright in leather trousers is the finest sight you could wish for, strangely...

♥

you know what's REALLY gay (apart from me, obviously)? the fact that rachel owens is now obviously picking up on my over usage of the word gay!

also, in the gay stakes, also in the best stakes, i'm having lunch with the headmistress tomorrow. she's bringing in cake and sandwiches. and no, this is not a joke! pass by her office tomorrow lunch and you'll see (assuming we're eating there of course).

ed was feeling gay today. i tried to cheer him up, but he has school photos tomorrow, like us. i shaved my legs especially, even though they won't be seen. but you know, i like to feel at least slightly good on gay days like those. are we even having them? no one seems to know.

i just did maths and geography homework, but not enough. i spent my time talking to neil and watching a program called no sex please, we're teenagers.

sarah morris is in a wheelchair and this means we get to use the lift, which i think you'll agree is impressive. it's gay.. but i still get to use the lift so..hmm.

also, i arranged laser quest, or rather i tried to but the man was gay and sounded about my age. so mum sorted that out..i think i overbooked by accident which means i'll have to pay more unless someone wants to come too. harf harf.

i just want to feel.
safe in my own skin
i just want to be,
happy again.
i just want to feel, deep in my own world
but im so lonely i dont even want to be with myself anymore.

on a different day
if i was safe in my own skin,
then i wouldn't feel
lost and so frightened.
but this is today, and i'm lost in my own skin.
and im so lonely i dont even want to be with myself anymore.

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